What is going on?

I just don't understand why, after all we have been through, she can say such things? What am I? some kind of a clown or entertainer? That is not true happiness.

I really hope, she will open her eyes and see what true happiness is. What hurt me the most was that she compared me with him, I felt so hurt when she did that. He is really garbage in my eyes. I did everything for her, is to realise, happiness and love can be simple and not complicated. Just by having the company and appreciating one's presence, is something we should be blessed and thoughtful of.

It really pains me to see us argue over such silly things. After all I have done, what does it mean? You think I want to create problems on purpose? I don't! I truly love her and I want to be with her. I do hope she will open her eyes and see the real picture. I really don't know, how long more I can wait. I envision many things with her and I hope my dreams will come true.