Where am I heading?

Every time I come online on this blog, I keep writing depressing stuff. I have been thinking the whole day about her, and I don't know, in the end, where will we be heading. Sometimes, I feel, I've done so much for her, but, is she really appreciative of it? What can I do to make her come to her senses?

Each time I do so much for her, I feel happy, but then I get slapped back on the face. It keeps happening time after time. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I really love her, and I really want to try out a relationship with her, but its so freaking tough. All the odds are against me and I don't want to give up. I am now hanging by a thread and its gonna snap anytime soon.

When oh when will she come to her senses or when will she ever come to love me? I know I shouldn't be asking much, but it can't be helped. What if you were in my shoes? How would you feel? This is freaking horrible and I hope God will be on my side. Its so unfair to see this happening. I fucking hate it!