How long should I wait?

Am I really that patient to wait for someone who is already attached? How long can I wait? Its like I wish, I had a crystal ball to look to the future. I'm playing with a coin of 2 sides, hoping that I will get the side that I want.

Today, my teacher shared with me a story of how he got married with his wife. He was in the same situation as me (except that he is the one with 2 girls by his side). His wife, who was still dating him and the one waiting, finally said to him,"I can't wait for you anymore. I have to move on." This made my teacher realized how important she was to him.

I'm thinking, should I do that? Maybe, at the end of the year. I just want her to realise, that I am the one who can give her security, not him. But, when will she realise about this?

A close buddy of mine told me, given at my current situation, I should be happy and not be sad because I am with her most of the time. Yes, I do get jealous, but I can't help it. To think positive, think of what I have done with her, times we spent and so forth. I am praying that everything will turn out well.

I know my blog has been flooded with a lot of this kind of rubbish, but I can't help it. I am at my wits end and my pride has been crushed so badly. In a way, I asked for it. Love is blind, and, I don't know, how long more I can wait for her. All I can do, is just wait and build up this relationship, hoping it will blossom.

I hate this feeling

I hate it, everytime she calls him in front of me or vice versa, I get very angry, jealous and upset. How long do I have to go through this rubbish? Feeling so vexed thinking about it. What should I do? What should I fucking do? I am so vexed about it. I feel like screaming.

Jealousy, how should I overcome it?

I am someone who gets jealous so easily. Worse still, jealous of a girl that I like and love so much. Every time when she posts msgs about her bf, I feel so upset and jealous. Every time when she answers the call from her bf, I get so jealous.

I can't help it, I want to control it, but I can't. Its a roller coaster ride for me. I feel happy when we are talking and all. I feel jealous and upset when he comes into the picture. I don't know, when she will ever love me. I am scaling up this mountain that is very steep and I keep falling and tripping onto the rocks. When will I reach the top of happiness? Or will I stumble all the way to the bottom of the mountain? Or should I just signal for help and hitch a ride out of here?

Am I making the right choice in pursing this love? Or there any other options?

1. Do I really love her? Yes, I do and for so many reasons.

2. Is there any hope? Honestly speaking, I am not sure. On a positive note, I feel there is. Because, we have gone through so much together.

Now, how should I overcome this jealousy? Its very hard not to think about it. Get myself distracted? How? Occupy myself with work? Career? Studies?

I need to strategies on this. Work out a plan. How am I going to do it? Think think think. My brain is going to explode soon!!!!

Still Waiting

Sometimes, I ask myself, is it worth waiting for a girl that is already attached? I feel so much agony thinking about it.

I know, it is a selfish thought, for me to wish that they break, but I can't help it. I want to do it professionally, by waiting. I am afraid, by then , I would have already been exhausted. My mind and life is like a roller coaster ride now. I am very weak when it comes to the matters of the heart. I'm love sick and I admit that.

I just hope, one day, she will come to realize how important I am and my feelings for her. I don't know, how long I can wait. I know I have to be patient, but its killing me inside. Haiz......

The Waiting

I don't know, how much more I can wait, for this girl that I love all the way from abroad. At times, it hurts to see her write such messages to her bf. It is not fair, seeing the guy putting in the least of his efforts to shower her with love whereas I've done so much. This is not fair and she is blinded by his actions.

I don't know when they will break up and I am really hoping, everything will be solved soon. I really want to be with her, and I hope prayers are answered. This agony I am facing, its painful cut inside of me.

I'm trying, to convince myself, that we will be together. I want to think positive, and I hope it will be. Whenever I think about the sad things of her, I will breakdown in cold sweat and I feel my heart ache badly. How?

Is it worth waiting for a girl that is already attached?

Its been a few months that I have been facing with this agony. Worse still, it is a long distance relationship.

I fell in love with her a girl, that has so many things in common with me. She likes me a lot too, but, she can't let her Jap boyfriend go. Its because of this particular guy that is preventing us from getting together.

We are waiting, to see if we are able to get together. But, I don't know how long more I can wait for this agony to be over. I am also upset, that I put in so much effort, and that jerk doesn't do much but she still loves him. This is not fair I tell you.

I'm now telling myself to hang in there as I believe, she and I will be together soon and its just a matter of time. I'm just waiting for that guy to make one more mistake and she will leave him. I hope, that she will come to realise that the Jap guy is not worth her love. I hope, this saying is true,"Patience is Virtue". All I hope, is that everything will work well and I want to be the frist man to step into her house to visit her parents. I don't want to lose her because, we have so many things in common and we want to do many things together in life. We are still taking time to learn from one another. Will she be the one?