Monday, November 30, 2009

Is it a fact? Do we have to face the fact?

Ever heard of the saying, if its meant to be yours it will be? Sometimes, I really choose not to believe in this statement. This is applicable in the BGR I'm having problems with. Is it really not meant to be? I really wish she could be mine, for we have so much in common. I know in life, we can't force things, but, why is it that I see some ppl getting into a relationship so easily?
I don't want to give up on her, I just hoping, one day, she'll give me this chance to express my feelings and love for her. It may sound that I'm begging, but I personally feel that she's the one. The only thing I'm intending to do now, to continue chasing after her, but not to put in too much effort into it and maybe, hoping that the right one steps into my life. I want to go against the fact and I will face it bravely at all cause!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to win this battle, and I do hope I can, but I must tell myselfm, if all fails, I must face the consequences of falling deep. I hope I'm making the right choice.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Once again, been rejected.

Just a few days back, I was talking to her online and all of a sudden, she raised this question, "Do you like me?" I was caught off guard as I didn't want her to know how I feel. But, she wanted my honest answer and I just told her the truth. She told me that she's not prepared for a relationship for now, and she just wanted to let me know first as she didn't want me to waste my time.
I just told her that I'm taking things slow and I'n hoping that she will give herself a chance as well not now, but who knows when to come. I did ask her as well, whether she feels the same way as I do, she said that she likes me as a friend. I duno whether I should feel happy or sad and whether I still stand a chance anot. I also said that, when she's ready, I'll be waiting for her. Last thing she said was,"We'll see how it goes okay".
Time after time, this shit always have to happen. I really don't know what to do. I don't want to give up on her. She's not the type of girl that was "love at first sight". I hate it so much, that all the efforts have gone down the drain. Should I just continue to woo her? Or should I just give up on her? I'm really really lost. Its like, I'm gonna crash. The worse thing that I would not like to see, is that she's lying to me as she likes someone else.
I know, that I'm very emotional and its not as if that I've gotten into that relationship, but its time after time, this chance just slips away. I just want to continue as what we are doing. But, I can say that, it will not end up well. I did left her a msg, telling her that if she's free next sun, leave me a msg, which is very very unlikely of her. It hurts very deeply.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

What if efforts became wasted time?

Have you ever wondered, if you were to put in a lot of effort to woo a girl that you love, in terms of planning and making the time for her, all turns out a waste of time and not appreciated? How would you feel? Vexed? Worthed it? Nothing? For me, I hate this feeling whenever it happens. You just feel like crashing and breaking down. But, what can I do? At times, I do hate it when it involves matters of the heart.