Am I making the wrong move?

Been thinking about it, whether I should make the first move to initiate the conversation with her or should I wait and take a break? Hands are feeling itchy to contact her, but I'm afraid of disturbing her.

I wish love could be simple. I can understand why some man prefer to stay single so that they do not need to trouble themselves with all these problems.

I do hope I can get what I want, I'm afraid that this opportunity will either fail or slip away. I'm feeling like this now through this song by REO Speedwagon.

KEEP ON LOVING YOU (Reo Speedwagon)

You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was something missing
You should've known by the tone a' my voice, maybe But you didn't listen
You played dead, but you never bled, Instead you lay still in the grass, all coiled up and hissing
And though I know all about those men Still I don't remember
Cause it was us, baby, ready for them And we're still together
And I meant, every word I said
When I said that I love you, I meant that I'd love you forever
And I'm gonna keep on loving you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on loving you
And I meant, every word I said
When I said that I love you, I meant that I'd love you forever
And I'm gonna keep on loving you
Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep
I just wanna keep on loving you
Baby I'm gonna keep on loving you
'Cause it's the only thing I wanna do
I don't wanna sleep, I just wanna keep on loving you

My mind has been just a whirlwind since I saw you

Got this title from the song "Can't fight this feeling" by REO Speedwagon. They are one of the best bands in the world, such beautiful lyrics and melody. Their interpretation and expression of love is wonderful, just the way I feel it now.

Well, this few days, its been some kinda mind playing games. Felt a sense of disappointment, where I've summed up the courage to call her out for a dinner date, but in the end, the dinner date did not take place.

The dinner date became a group outing and I was actually hesitant to go but I gave in. She pursuaded me to go for the outing and rearrange another dinner date. I could tell why she wanted to go out with the group very badly because they were heading to KTV and when I saw her singing and participating in almost every song, I could understand why.

I didn't speak to her much. I don't know why, but the only explanation that I could think of was that I only felt comfortable speaking to her if its one on one basis. Throughout the outing, we only spoke very short conversations. I felt very sad when we left for home, no hug from her and she didn't say goodbye to me. She just headed straight for the cab with the rest and went off.

Most disappointing part was when I smsed the girls, telling them to sms me when they get home to let me know that they have reached home safe. Everyone replied except her. Why was that so? Did she forget? Or was she lazy to reply? Why why?

These are the things that have made me gone pondering over my thoughts. I felt very uneasy, but at times, am I thinking too much? I'm trying to stop this habit, but sometimes, I can't help it.
I do hope that everything turns out well for. It it doesn't, its gonna hurt a lot and I'll take quite some time to recover from it. I do feel like shutting myself from all this problems. I wish life was simple without all this kinda complications.

What can I do? Everytime I'm asking myself, what can I do to solve this? Maybe fate will help me? Till next time.

Life

At times, have you ever wondered how some people are able to get what they want without any hassle? Don't you feel jealous and wish you had the same opportunity? The worse thing is, how come some people can get a gf so easily? What's the secret? How did they do it? Or are they just plain lucky? I have been waiting for this luck and opportunity to step into my life, but I have yet to receive it.

Here is a scenario for you to think about. Would you prefer to have someone who likes you and you didn't even put in that effort to make the person like you, or would you prefer to go after someone that you put in your effort and time to get the final product? This has been in my mind for quite some time already and it sucks to think about it. Give it some thought.

Sometimes, I can understand why there are people who chose to stay single. Its a bloody waste of time and if you can't get what you want, that will be the worse.

How long can I hide this feeling?

Have you ever had this feeling of wanting to tell a girl how you are fond of her? But, you are scared of rejection or afraid that her friends find out as well and in the end, everyone just gives you the cold shoulder?

I'm facing the problem now, and I am seriously lost. She's like someone that I've finally found, someone who I feel can talk to and have a lot of things in common. I'm just afraid that in the end, when I confess my feelings, I'll get rejected. I hate this feeling, and I've felt that many times already. I do hope to face this problem with courage.

My friend did tell me not to put my hopes too high, but I cant help it. I do hope that in the end, I'll be able to bring her home for a meal with my family. I really really cross my fingers and pray to God that she'll be the one. I feel she's the one. But, will she?

I'm Back!

After 6 months, I'm back into writing my blog! Well, I've finally ORD and I'm glad its over. Been busy with my Scout activities and awards that I'm pursuing. Also, a new language i'm learning, KOREAN! Haha, didn't expect myself to learn this. I'm learning this for interest and business. I'm hoping to get a job soon, and I made a lot of new friends, of which there is a girl tht I'm really fond of. I really hope I can get to be with her. I feel she's the right one for me and the one I've been searching for. I do hope we can get closer and closer as the time comes. Well, that's all folks!