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Its been 2 months plus since I last logged in. Currently doing my attachment in Boon Lay. Its fun but at the same time, tiring and kinda stressful. Been hanging out with my clicke and chilling. All this while, I was able to overcome and divert my attention away from her. But last Sat, I saw her togerther with her bf, sitting beside me at the esplanade. I felt so depressed, my heart sank deeply. She saw me and she stared at me, awared of my appearance. I didn't want to look at her, but just kept on talking to my friend. After that, I went off. I walked past her, I saw her looking at me, but I just ignored. I felt that if she really cherished the friendship, she should be the one to take the first step to say hi, not me. I don't agree in this saying of guys must always take the initiative. What century are we in now? Come on man! On my way home, as I board the train, i noticed her trying to get onto the train, but it closed and she was left outside. I felt a sense of relieve. My tears came out as I thought about her, about the moments and sacrifices I made for her. Was it worthed it? I hope to overcome this ordeal once again, and I don't know, maybe hoping to hear from her soon? Or should I just fuck it? Let nature take its path.