Emotional Breakdown

Felt the pain of rejection from someone that I liked for many years. Feels like a knife opening up the wound, the penetration is so deep. Why? Why can't I have a chance at all? I really wana be with her, but God is playing a joke on me. Everytime this kind of shit has to happen to me. The worse thing is to see the girl that you like goes steady with someone else. The pain hurts like hell, the agony and pain I'm feeling now.