First time in my life!

Today was quite an amazing day for me. But a boring morning. Went back to St.Gab's to do some trashing with the sec 3's. In the afternoon went to gym with Beng. Feeling was good, pumping up again. During the evening time, I felt kinda bored, didnt know wad to do. Then I decided to go bowling at Hougang SuperBowl alone. At the alley, I sort of got my spinner method rite. Lots of ppl were looking at me bowl. Then suddenly, I caught notice of the group of malay ppl looking at me bowl, especially one pretty gal amongst them. I noticed her telling friends and pointing at me and the way I bowl. I stared at her and she smiled at me. Haha!!! First time man! (Wasted, if only it was a chinese gal). Haha! After that, she and her friends went to make the payment. After that, as I was about to bowl, I heard some said loudly "Bye Bye!" I turned around and it was her. She was saying goodbye to me! WTF!!!! I was startled for a moment. Then I was bye to her and immediately carried on with my bowling. After bowling, I had dinner with parents. AFter eating, as I followed my parents to the car, I saw her again. Again, she signalled her friend about me, I turned away and walked. Shy sia. Haha! In the car, I thought to myself, did she smiled and said bye to me for fun or isit infatuation? Its a mystery. LOL!!

Demoralised!!!!!

Today was the day of the MDIS bowling competition . My group was expecting a good performance from me. I was looking forward to it. The competitors were very challenging. And I felt some instinct that I couldnt make it. Sad to say, it was true. My group was out of the top 20 teams. Imerged as one of the last few few teams. So bad! WTF!?!?! I apologised to my group members, as I felt that I was the main cause of pulling down the groups score. They didnt blame me, especially one of the members in my team who is from Burma. He even said to me, "next competition, we'll team up again." I was amazed by what he said. I felt bad enough already. Soon, all the groups from TP gathered to have some TCS. I didnt have the mood to, so I made an excuse that I had something on and left. As I was on my way home, felt so demoralised. Haiz. LAter in the evening, went to Amos hse to play Need For Speed Underground. Haha!!!! Thought it was a lame game, but found out it was a cool and fun game to play. Haha. Felt much better after playing the game and talking cock to Amos. Lol. Damn gay! Played that game for 3 hrs like a couch potato, didnt even move about. LOL! After that, said gdbye to him and left. Really felt good and I liked it!!!

Is it fate? Why must it happen to me??

Earlier today in the morning, I was at Bishan Mac with Shu Hao, teaching him chemistry for his O levels. I din like the idea of going to Bishan, thinking that I might bump into Sally. But I thought it was crap. We were studying outside the Mac instead of inside cause of the crowd. Then, after teaching him for some time, I decided to take a toilet break. After that, as I walked out of the toilet heading towards the exit, I caught noticed of a gal. All of a sudden, I just stood like a statue staring at her. I thought to myself, "She looks familiar, but who isit ?" Then I remember..... Its Sally! My mouth just dropped and in my mind was WTF!!!!! Then I quickly walked out. My friend asked what happened and I told him about it. My day was spoilt, seeing someone that I've not seen for a long time, someone who has avoided me for a long time. I felt a deep cut in my heart. She saw me, but she couldnt recognise me as she just turned away. After that, I wasnt really in the mood to teach my friend, but I tried as I cant do this kinda foolish thing, for a gal I cant teach my friend kind of thingy. When I reach home, I went for a jog to divert my attention. As I jog, I thought to myself, why?!? What a coincidence! Are we fated to see each other after so long?? Even so, why cant we talk anymore?? I felt very hurt. I just didnt know what to do. Is it meant to be that I have to see her once in a while? Last time saw her at CJC and Far East, now at Bishan!!! What The FUck!!!! ArghH!!!!! I just wish one day she and I could still talk. That's all I want, I dun yearn for a relationship with her anymore. it hurts every beat to think about it. and I cant stopped thinking about it. Sometimes my heart still feels for her. But does she? It is a mystery.